Talal. Talal. Talal. Talal. He wouldn't leave my mind, I knew that if I let him slip my mind, I would go back to being a wreck. I was entering the under-ground parking in his apartment building.
I locked my Black Range Rover, and headed to the elevators. To my surprise, Talal was in his spongebob boxers and plain white t-shirt inside the elevator. I quickly made my way to him with a big smile, when the elevator door finally closed, I turned around and ran into him hugging him. His hands were already wide spread so when I was within his reach, he held me as tight as he could. I was already in tears, I knew I was happy to see him, but that couldn't have made my problems go away.. Once we reached the 14th floor, he carried me into his apartment and laid me on his couch. He then put the mango smoothie in front of me.
I sighed because I knew that was my cue to start talking.
Dalal: Talal.. I.. I came home tonight to find him drunk... again. Only this time, there was fury in his eyes, I could practically feel the hatred from here! As soon as I entered the house, he made his way to me and slapped me.
Talal was already furious, his eyes were turning red and the veins in his neck were stiffening. I motioned him to come and sit next to me, I laid my head down in his lap and then continued.
Dalal: Talal I didn't do anything, I didn't want to end up in a hospital bed like three years ago.. So I shut up and let him do what he was best at. He then threw a punch at my stomach, I screeched and that sent him off raging, he kicked and punched. I was crying endlessly, I was in pain, but I couldn't do anything. Then he carried me off the ground and pulled me to my bedroom, mom wasn't home and the nanny's were at my grandfathers.
I stopped, too pained to answer. See, tonight was the end of the beginning of my life. There WAS no more life to be lived. I had lost it all. Everything I could give, I lost it. I lost it all because my brother was a drunk, I lost it all because Youssef couldn't handle my fathers leaving. He always blamed it on me, because my mother and I constantly fought, he thought my dad got sick of my trouble and left to marry a gold digging monster. I was in deep thought, but then I came back to earth when I felt Talal's legs moving up and down, showing no signs of patience. So I continued to the worst of it all..
Dalal: Talal.. he took me to my bedroom, and he took it away from me. The most precious thing a girl holds, he took it. I screamed and pushed him away like no other day, but it didn't work. His strong hands found a way to cover my mouth for it's screams and hold my hands down for their whereabouts.
Talal listened. I could see his eyes becoming redder with anger, he was prepared to kill Youssef at this very moment. But his eyes softened once he saw tears rolling down my red cheeks carelessly and silently. He pulled me onto his lap and reminded me that it was okay, that I had him to count on, that no one could take me away from him.
Talal: Dalal he didn't take away the most precious thing, because that's what a girl holds that is precious. You.. are the special part of you, you are the most beautiful girl I've ever seen, see you hold what most girls don't hold, therefore you have something much more precious. You are brave, you're strong, you're so beautiful, and when I dream of my future, I see you and I see a pretty little girl looking just like you. Our daughter, and all that, I could only describe it coming down in one word.. Dalal.
Talal was always protective, he tried to be loving. But he found it hard to confide in anyone, found it hard to show his feelings. So I was extremely surprised, we'd always been best-friends.. Nothing more, we never talked about our feelings because well, I always had more to deal with and I couldn't risk losing the one person who was there for me.
I looked into his dark green eyes, I'd never seen them this way before. I studied the rest of his face, it all seemed new to me. I had seen it before, but it just looked special today. He was special. But I ignored it all, there was a knot in my stomach and I needed to untangle it before adding extra strings. I continued in detail.
Dalal: Talal, he stripped me of my clothes with his teeth. I had never seen a human so savage, I could see hatred and only hatred in his eyes. There were no other feelings. And he made his way inside of me.
At this point, I had to stop, I was panting and tears were falling down my cheeks, I lost control of myself, the normally so sane Dalal. I made my way to the kitchen and began throwing things all over, breaking all the plates and cups. I finally came to the drawer with knives, I picked out the largest one. I looked over to see Talal staring into outter space trying to take in what he had just heard. It never went this far, it was always just a beating. But last night, it all changed. I tightened my grip on the knife seeing the painful affect it had on Talal, he was more important to me then myself. I couldn't take it anymore, knowing I was his burden, he felt the need to take care of me. But did I want this life for him?
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