Fear - Chapter 22

When I made my way outside the airport, I was waited for by a girl that looked about a year or two older than me with my name stuck on a card held above her head. She was really white, brown hair that was cut as short as a mans but in no efficient way, and she was wearing an ugly grey dress that looked like what could be the school's uniform as it had a logo on the top right corner or it's collar. 

My smile immediately disappeared as I walked to her while she eyed my hips that swayed along with my confident walk. 

This.. Was going to be interesting I thought, and a mischievous grin grew wide on my face. 

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As I walked closer to her, I couldn't help but notice the huge.. and I mean enormous mole next to her left eyebrow. I didn't think a mole was that bad, it was just the few hairs sticking out of it that had me thinking of vomit. 

As I finally approached her, she eyed me once again. I extended my hand, and she took it with hesitation.

Lama: Hi! 

Girl: Umm hi.. 

Lama: Are you from the boarding school?

Girl: Yeah

I scratched my head then looked down at my luggage.. They were pretty heavy.

Lama: Umm.. Can you show me how we're heading there? The bag is a bit heavy.

She looked down at my bag, then back up to me again and just stared.

Then? I was creeped out!

This girl was just staring at me, like I'm a picture, she was staring! 

I put on an awkward smile and waved my hands in front of her eyes then chuckled.

Lama: Umm hellooo! Anybody in there?

I tried to giggle a little and cut the awkwardness.. But she was still staring!

It took her about 10 seconds to finally zap out of her stares and look back up into my eyes, ready to say something.

Girl: Sure, um let's go then?

She asked hesitantly, as if she was asking me! Well I don't know where we're going, I thought. 

She then started to walk really slowly, still hesitating into the parking. I wasn't sure where we were heading, and what I was expecting so I just followed along until she stopped at a car.

And it wasn't just any car.. 

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It was a Bentley.

Yes everybody, you read right.

It was a Bentley.

A beautiful, and might I repeat, a beautiful pearly white Bentley.

Fear - Chapter 21

Here I was thinking I'd dread leaving, but all I could think about while walking to the check-in was a fresh start. I knew I'd miss Abdulaziz, and only Abdulaziz but I was looking forward to leaving, getting my head straight.

After all, a 15 year old was never this missed up.  

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After buying all the candy possible from Duty Free, I was now in the plane. *In case anybody is wondering how she's funding herself, she's got a credit card. 
I knew the plane ride to Bahrain was only 15 minutes away, and it releived me a little knowing that at least I was getting a new start, but not so far away from home.. If I could call it that that is. 

I plugged my iPod in and took out some candy, trying to avoid hitting the old woman next to me because of her loud calls to her son that was across the airplane. I closed my eyes, and before I knew it the plane was in the air and there was only a few minutes until landing. So I took out my iPod and began to look through the music to waste time.. The lady next to me finally spoke to me after she eyed my iPod suspiciously.

Lady: Is that your phone?

I knew she spoke arabic cause when she was yelling to her son, it was in a Jordanian arabic accent, but she spoke to me in a perfect British accent. Hmm I thought, that's interesting. I giggled a little, I was use to getting this question from people to be honest.

Lama: No, it's my ipod but it's the new nano so it's really small.

She looked at me, and I had a proud smile in me because my American accent slipped out of me fast and hard. 

And then.. she just turned her face. I laughed a little, it was stupid but I was bored. 

*Sound of airplane hitting the ground hehe*. The next thing I knew we had landed and the pilot was coming to a stop. 

After about 10 minutes, the door finally opened and I was welcome to Bahrain with the hot breeze. Oh yes, I had forgotten it's not so different to the weather in Qatar. I smiled, and made my way through the buses and airport in no time with a genuine smile and confident walk.

When I made my way outside the airport, I was waited for by a girl that looked about a year or two older than me with my name stuck on a card held above her head. She was really white, brown hair that was cut as short as a mans but in no efficient way, and she was wearing an ugly grey dress that looked like what could be the school's uniform as it had a logo on the top right corner or it's collar. 

My smile immediately disappeared as I walked to her while she eyed my hips that swayed along with my confident walk. 

This.. Was going to be interesting I thought, and a mischievous grin grew wide on my face. 

Fear - Chapter 20

I tried to smile, thinking about how amazing he is but I couldn't.. I couldn't stay here. I had to take the consequences for what I've done. 

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Lama: Abdulaziz I can't.. I'm sorry..

His eyes filled with an emotion that I couldn't read, I didn't know if he was confused, sad, hurt, mad? 

But then I got it: Fear. 

Lama: I'm not going anywhere..

He creased his eyebrows, waiting for me to finish.

Lama: Ya3ni stop worrying that I'll forget you.. I love you and I won't forget you.. Besides I'm pretty sure the boarding school is only for girls anyways.

I stopped and winked at him.

Lama: If you'll wait for me, then i'll be back in no time azooz, w when I get back, we can be together fully, but for now azooz, we just have to hold it together for the sake of each other, okay?

I pouted at him, I couldn't resist treating him like my baby, even though he was older!

He slightly smiled at me, I guess he was confused and tongue tied, so I just grabbed the keys I saw on the table and held his hand then led him outside, and then we were on the way to the airport, in a completely silent car ride.

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After what was about 15-20 minutes, we arrived there and like my father said, my driver was there with my bag. I didn't need to look inside because I'm sure the maids knew everything I would ever need and plus, the bag looked pretty filled up. The only thing I asked of him though was for my laptop, and he pointed at the bag shaking his head, expecting me to understand that it's inside there so I just smiled at him. 

And then the moment I was dreading came to place, and I had to turn around to see a funny looking Abdulaziz with his legs crossed and his arms on his chest also crossed.

I smiled a childish smile and went up to him, he already opened his arms out for me and there I was embracing him like today was our last day, hoping it wasn't. When he finally tried to let go, he bent down a little and kissed my forehead then looked down at me while holding me from my shoulders.

Abdulaziz: I'll miss you so much, and I'll wait for you like you would like to wait for me. I'll be right in this same place when you get back, and you take care of yourself okay? I love you.

Just like that, I hugged him again. 

After a few minutes, I was off with my bag and walking to the check-in. I kept glancing back to see Abdulaziz who was still staring at me, probably taking in that I was leaving.

Here I was thinking I'd dread leaving, but all I could think about while walking to the check-in was a fresh start. I knew I'd miss Abdulaziz, and only Abdulaziz but I was looking forward to leaving, getting my head straight.

After all, a 15 year old was never this missed up. 

Fear - Chapter 19

I didn't know where I was going except for Abdulaziz driving somewhere while I sat there silently, unable to utter a word. 

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I was laid in a bed, next to a sleeping Abdulaziz while asking God if he could just open the ground beneath this bed, and swallow me in whole. 

After silently weeping, I tried to pull myself together and closed my eyes, attempting to sleep while snuggling into the heavy and cozy blanket. I wrapped my arm around Abdulaziz and felt safe within the heat that left his body. 

I woke up again at Abdulaziz softly nudging me. I slightly opened my eyes and just smiled at waking up to his face. He rubbed my shoulder and told me that breakfast was ready after saying "Good morning beautiful". I rose from the red and headed towards the toilet, I did my business and off I went downstairs after quickly grabbing my phone off the night table. 

As I walked downstairs, my phone began to vibrate in my hands. I turned it around to find that my father was calling me, I sighed and then answered while my hand trembled. 

Lama: A-Alo?

Baba: 2 hours and your plane leaves to a boarding school Bahrain. Your ticket will be in the airport with your driver who's got all your bags. 

Just like that.. He hung up! 

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I went downstairs, grabbed a bananna and then made my way to the front door. I was really mad, and I just completely wasn't thinking about Abdulaziz. Although I cursed myself under my breath when I heard the bathroom door close to the kitchen open, and I heard Abdulaziz calling after me.

I slowly turned around on my ankle, and looked at him while trying to pull a tight smile. Although as soon as we spent about 30 seconds looking at each other, while he tried to analyze me confusingly. All I knew how to do was run up to him and hug him, I couldn't bare the thought of knowing that I wouldn't see him for a very long. After he embraced me tightly, he finally asked me what's wrong. 

Lama: Aziz ana.. my dad just called.. and umm.. my plane is in 2 hours.. 

I stopped.

Lama: can you drive me to the airport? I wanna spend as much time as possible with you.. 

Abdulaziz held my wrists really tightly, I saw his face turn red.

Abdulaziz: La you're not leaving.. I don't care, you can stay here. 

I tried to smile, thinking about how amazing he is but I couldn't.. I couldn't stay here. I had to take the consequences for what I've done. 

Fear - Chapter 18

As I walked away being lead by Nasser, I slipped my hand to touch Abdulaziz's, just reassuring him one more time. I didn't know if he understood what I was trying to show, but I sure as hell was going to let him know. I was going to let him know he's the one. 

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I began to take a few fast steps ahead of Nasser, it was my way of figuring out what to say. I looked back to see him just standing in his place and staring at me while digging his fingers into his dark jeans pockets. I caught a glimpse of Abdulaziz behind him; his eyes filled with sorrow and misunderstanding.

It was then that my nerves stopped holding me short of what I had to say. I just let it out because of that man standing right behind Nasser... That man that was Abdulaziz.

Lama: Nasser ana asfa lakn I don't want to be with you. I forgive you because I'm a forgiving person, but I'm in love with your brother. 

Just as I said those words, his eyes filled with rage. He turned around and looked at his brother with eyes full of hate and despair. I could almost imagine the red horns sticking out of his head, and the steam storm out of his ears. But no, what I really saw was his face turn into a very dark shade of red, along with the strains in the eyes that also turned dark red, and I saw the sweat drops making their way down his forehead. 

For a minute, I thought he'd go and attack his brother, but no. He left me with some confusing words and he stormed out of the hospital. But his words.. They kept running through my head, and I knew they scared me because I felt tingles rush at the tip of my fingers, and I felt that slight burn fly through my heart.

I looked back and there was no sign whatsoever of Nasser, he was gone.

But his words weren't. 

"This isn't over." 

The words kept repeating in my head as I twisted my heels around to look at a confused Abdulaziz with one hand in his light jeans, and another running through his hair while huffing; obviously irritated and tired. 

I walked up to him very slowly, and stood in front of me trying to collect my words. 

It was then that I saw my father a few steps away from turning a corner into the sitting room I was sitting in. I panicked at the sight of my father, he'd misunderstand this! 

I tried to scurry away while pushing Abdulaziz out of sight by pushing him down another corridor. He stood there confused until he also took a glimpse to find my father and then he stood still; casually looking the other way.

My father made his way up to me, his eyes still filled with disgust as everything dawn upon me once again. Oh yes, I was the disappointment of a daughter I thought as he opened his mouth to speak.

My Father: Your mother woke up. We'll be taking her back to her house to rest and your sisters will take care of her. My wife and I will be heading back home to rest, as for you.. Find your own way back to some type of shelter because neither of us will house a monster and I'll be in contact with you in a few days about where I plan to send you. 

I didn't really concentrate on his last few words as the word "monster" kept repeating over and over again in my head. The next thing I knew, my waist was being twisted to my left side to find Abdulaziz looking at me with sadness in his eyes, with worry in his eyes. I quickly took a look back to see where my father was and I found him already in the room with the rest of the family. 

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I didn't know where I was going except for Abdulaziz driving somewhere while I sat there silently, unable to utter a word.