Fear - Chapter 17

But then.. Somebody walked in and stood a few centimeters away from me while crossing his arms around his perfectly shaped chest with a very worried expression on his face. That is when I knew, I knew I wasn't alone.. I knew I could get through this. 

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I stared at Abdulaziz while a slight smile began to form on my lips. But my mind began to drift off as I saw the figure behind him approach us; walking slowly and stopping right next to Abdulaziz. I studied Nasser's face features, eyeing his v-chin and admiring his curvy smile, then I was lost.. I was lost in those grey eyes that I always loved. 

Suddenly, I was beginning to remember the first day that Nasser confessed his feelings to me. I smiled as the memory came flying back. We were on their roof, I had originally come to see Abdulaziz but I ended up leaving him and sitting with Nasser to talk.. I remembered how close we were back then, and when he held my hand while we sat under the stars. I loved the moment back then, but as I fell back in the memories I realized just how cliche it really all was. 

But then it hit me, I had "left" Abdulaziz for Nasser. 

Does Abdulaziz deserve this? After all he never left my side. But Nasser did. Nasser left because he said I was too much of a drama queen.. He left because he couldn't "commit" a relationship. Is that a real man? Of course not I thought to myself. 

I brought myself back to reality and moved my eyes back at Abdulaziz's. They were almost identical to Nasser's but they had a hint of green color in them. God, I love him. And just as those words appeared in my mind, I knew it. I knew I did. I knew I always did. And before I knew it, I was walking up to Abdulaziz and laying myself in his arms. I hugged him like it's been years. I hugged him the longest and tightest hug I've ever given anyone. But the important part was that I was in his arms. I was finally in his arms and I loved it. I loved his warm embrace and his strong muscular arms wrapped around me. 

When I finally let go, I stepped back and gave Abdulaziz a reassuring smile and then asked Nasser to take a walk with me. 

As I walked away being lead by Nasser, I slipped my hand to touch Abdulaziz's, just reassuring him one more time. I didn't know if he understood what I was trying to show, but I sure as hell was going to let him know. I was going to let him know he's the one.